We are back at working from home and it has been a busy time as we got back into the swing of things. With each week, it has become clear that the ongoing major restructuring at my wife’s bank is turning into a marathon instead of a sprint. Since the process is done in waves from top to bottom, the situation changes and new information surfaces about available roles as the appointments get confirmed. It’s tiring for her to have so much work going on while being unsure about whether she would still have a job at the end of this. Job uncertainty in the midst of a recession can be draining and exhausting.
There’s not much I can do except to discuss and strategise with my wife. It can be difficult to maintain a clear state of mind on the options ahead of her when she’s getting overwhelmed with daily work. While I may not understand the specifics of the various factors and their interaction, I help by going through the next steps with her in detail. So she knows what to do when the time comes and not miss crucial milestones and important points of consideration. It helps her to know she’s not alone in this and has my support.
As the baby gets older, he becomes louder and more demanding in terms of time and attention. He’s sleeping less during the day and is more active now. By diverting more time to my family, I had to spend less time at my job while ensuring stuff still gets done. Not an easy thing to do as things are already starting to fall through the cracks on my end. It’s like a balancing act with my priorities between what I must do, what I have to do, what would be good for me to do and what I can get away with not doing. I’m forced to be more efficient and effective with my time. Otherwise, I will have no time to myself for what I want to do.
My window of alone time is at night when my family goes to sleep. I stay up later to squeeze this time out for myself. I usually watch shows, read & write stuff and just enjoy the peace & quiet. I also self-evaluate on what I can improve on in the way I do things. This can be related to personal, family, professional and financial matters. As I assess our investment performance for the year, the shortcomings and weaknesses of our investing strategies start to surface. Every crisis teaches me something about what I lack and need to get better at. During the pandemic crisis earlier in the year, I invested larger sums of money into local and global ETFs as the markets crashed.
I may have improved on my position sizing and timing this time around compared to the previous crises. But my Dollar-Cost Averaging investing strategy after that without any manual lump sum investing resulted in me missing out on the subsequent recovery. I wasn’t sure the markets could recover so quickly and didn’t invest as much as I could have. More importantly, I missed out on the big bull run on technology stocks and cryptos by not understanding the investing trends at that time. The consequences of massive quantitative easing, low interest rates and the push into digitalisation.
I had some exposure to technology stocks via the US ETFs I was investing in and no exposure to cryptos. To be honest, these are not my areas of strengths to analyse and I have stayed away mostly from my lack of knowledge. And I paid the price for losing out on their outperformance and gains compared to every other industry sector stocks and asset class. So I have to learn from my mistakes and do something about this going forward. I have already missed the boat on technology stocks and cryptos this time around. Making a big lump sum investment now into them without any understanding just so that I don’t feel like I’m missing out is likely to be another mistake.
I can’t make up for lost gains when I have already lost the opportunity to do so. It’s due to my own laziness and ignorance, which can be painful to admit. So I have to be humble, take away my learning lessons and look inward to understand how I can get better. As I slowly gain more knowledge about technology stocks and cryptos, I have also gradually adjusted my asset allocation to increase my exposure to them. I’m not in any rush because I don’t want to get caught in the tail end of the big bull run. Conversely, I also don’t want to miss out any more if it continues. But I’m not going to jump into it without first learning more about them. I have to be patient and wait for the next opportunity to go for the bigger gains. There’s still time for me to work it out as long as I stay invested, focus on improving myself and keep moving forward.